Phua Yee Hwee

2011-12-10T00:17:00.002+08:00

Well in less than 24 hrs i'll start on at long long journey.

It will be a whole different experience.

Looking forward to it but kinda intimidating..

wonder what will i face when i am there..

though language is not really a prob, it's still a different land.

unfamiliar roads and unfamiliar faces but the thrill of exploring new places is still within.

Many things happened this week..

From man united getting knocked out of champions league to planning of another taiwan trip to course registration and confession. The latter certainly took me quite a bit of courage. Actually planned to get it out face to face but plans changed (can't imagine if face to face, i'll tremble like mad. LOL but of cos face to face will be better though) and yup, i failed. =/

well, starting to stone.. I'll update whenever i can during the trip.

Leave u guys with a quote and a song.

A picture tells a thousand words but a song tells everything~

2011-12-03T13:33:00.000+08:00

Don't really know what i should do~

2011-11-26T04:50:00.002+08:00

才離開沒多久就開始　擔心今天的妳過得好不好 整個畫面是妳　想妳想的睡不著  嘴嘟嘟那可愛的模樣　還有在妳身上香香的味道 我的快樂是妳　想妳想的都會笑  沒有妳在我有多難熬(沒有妳在我有多難熬多煩惱) 沒有妳煩我有多煩惱(沒有妳煩我有多煩惱多難熬)  穿過雲層　我試著努力向妳奔跑 愛才送到　妳卻已在別人懷抱  就是開不了口　讓她知道 我一定會呵護著妳　也逗妳笑 妳對我有多重要　我後悔沒　讓妳知道 安靜的聽妳撒嬌　看妳睡著　一直到老  就是開不了口　讓她知道 就是那麼簡單幾句　我辦不到 整顆心懸在半空　我只能夠　遠遠看著 這些我都做得到　但那個人已經不是我

2011-11-21T21:11:00.000+08:00

只想说。。我很想你。。

2011-11-18T14:39:00.000+08:00

我也是。。

2011-11-11T02:12:00.002+08:00

Hope someday i will be standing among the crowd and enjoying every single second of awesome music.

Exams are around the corner. jia you everyone!

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you~

2011-11-08T01:22:00.001+08:00

I'm the one who wants to be with you Deep inside I hope you feel it too Waited on a line of greens and blues Just to be the next to be with you~

2011-11-06T02:54:00.000+08:00

2011-10-31T23:09:00.001+08:00

These words are always kept within....

2011-10-29T16:41:00.001+08:00

Everyday before i fall asleep, you will appear on my mind....

2011-10-23T01:57:00.000+08:00

hmm looks like i am half way through to it..

what a dilemma eh?

2011-10-19T04:38:00.000+08:00

有话跟你说。。。

2011-10-12T02:12:00.002+08:00

should i just end it??

2011-09-21T06:10:00.001+08:00

Last weekend was a sad one. My godpa passed away due to lung cancer. Somehow i think i failed as a godson. I didnt really spend a lot of time with him or my godma since i finished sec school. But i think its kinda like a relieve for him as the last time when i saw him was be4 the start of this sem. That was like 7 weeks ago. At that time he was quite weak and shrink in size but still looking ok but cannot be compared to the past when he look strong and big. still able to walk ard but have abit of the frail moments. At times he will look uneasy/ in pain and tired. However it shows how unpredictable life can be. No one knew that he would pass away so suddenly.

From my impression, my godpa is good husband, father and grandpa. Everytime when he come home he will spend time with his family. Especially the grandsons and granddaughters. Very seldom he gets angry. I didnt really talk to much compare to how i talk with my godma (i guess that's quite common between father and son). I am quite happy that he and my godma both are converted to Christians! Who will have know that as they have been Buddhist since young. Praise the Lord!

Through the testimonials his 2 daughters gave i learnt a lot from him. I guess that is the final lesson he gave me. His is a very good example of faithful and devoted believer in Christ. Not long after he was converted, he was diagnosed with lung cancer. That didn't make him blame the Lord and continued to learn more about him. He didn't just believe in Christ just because he think that Jesus will heal him but because he wanted to know him more. As time goes by, he got weaker but that didn't stop him from going to services. Even when his daughter tried to ask him stay home but he insist on going. Upon alighting the car at the church, my godpa fell causing a cut near his eye. He was too weak at that time and had to be sent to the hospital.

After that he had to rely on oxygen supply, this cause him to mainly stay at home. During his stay at home he would spend his time reading and learning about the Lord. He completed the whole bible! I have only completed like maybe 3 books of the bible!

This was his favourite worship song. Got to know of it during his wake. I like the song and the lyrics are meaningful. During the service at his wake, i cant finish singing the song as tears start rolling out. Hoping to cover this song soon.

Daddy! you will always be remembered...

2011-09-01T00:16:00.000+08:00

STOP LYING!!!

I AM NOT THAT STUPID!!!

-How much pain can you take?-

2011-08-30T13:36:00.001+08:00

Thrown aside...

2011-08-20T11:28:00.002+08:00

School started!

feeling the kick with all the overloading work already..

maybe too long didnt study due to internship? =x

-No matter how long the time has passed, this song is still deep in my heart..-

2011-08-11T01:31:00.000+08:00

Reminders....

2011-08-09T03:15:00.001+08:00

Lights will guide you home...

2011-08-06T05:16:00.001+08:00

不知道。。。

2011-08-03T02:46:00.002+08:00

Well this keyboard is the latest temporary addition to the the instrument family (gopped from our studio)..

will try to learn to play it but think i'll take quite a long time.

just learned the song "Brother John".. a simple kid song but having a difficult time already @_@

Hope to play a standard song soon!

2011-08-01T01:29:00.000+08:00

Such heavy heart..

but why.....

2011-07-23T00:51:00.004+08:00

You were my conscience
so solid now you're like water
We started drowning
not like we'd sink any further
But I let my heart go
it's somewhere down at the bottom
But I'll get a new one.
come back for the hope that you've stolen

I'll stop the whole world
I'll stop the whole world
from turning into a monster, and eating us alive
Don't you ever wonder how we'd survive?
But now that you're gone the world is ours

I'm only human
I've got a skeleton in me
But I'm not the villain
despite what you're always preaching
Call me a traitor
I'm just collecting your victims
They're getting stronger,
I hear them calling

I'll stop the whole world
I'll stop the whole world
from turning into a monster, and eating us alive
Don't you ever wonder how we'd survive?
But now that you're gone the world is ours

Well you found us strength and solutions but I liked the tension
And not always knowing the answers when you're gonna lose it, you're gonna lose it.

I'll stop the whole world
I'll stop the whole world
from turning into a monster, and eating us alive
Don't you ever wonder how we'd survive?
But now that you're gone the world is ours

I'll stop the whole world
I'll stop the whole world
from turning into a monster, and eating us alive
Don't you ever wonder how we'd survive?
But now that you're gone the world is ours

2011-07-10T23:03:00.001+08:00

I just wanna hold you
I just wanna kiss you
I just wanna love you all my life
I normally wouldn't say this but I just can't contain it
I want you here forever right here by my side

2011-07-02T01:46:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i am really confused...

最想的人不是。。。。而是。。。。

2011-06-26T18:28:00.002+08:00

Hey ppl. My band, 'Decaf' has submitted an entry for the eco music challenge. please do support us =) voting closes on 4th July. visit this link to vote and share ----> http://www.facebook.com/l.php?

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Thanks for supporting!! =D

2011-06-05T21:21:00.000+08:00

You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

2011-05-14T17:17:00.000+08:00

just wanna know you more =)

2011-04-26T00:59:00.001+08:00

Sometimes i just dun feel like putting in anymore effort and just forget everything....

2011-04-20T22:45:00.000+08:00

Environment Environment.......

need to think Eco...

Eco challenge here we come!!

2011-04-03T22:47:00.001+08:00

Lei sam zhong kei yan mmm hai gnor...

2011-04-02T03:18:00.001+08:00

不明白

2011-03-09T00:48:00.000+08:00

我一直呼喊着你的名字。。
但你听见了吗？？

2011-02-17T01:47:00.001+08:00

want you by my side...

2011-02-15T21:22:00.000+08:00

at least tell me what went wrong or what did i did....

2011-02-13T22:03:00.003+08:00

4 years...

its been 4 years...

but somehow i still cant get over you..

i made a promise not to call u..

really hope i can keep it... =(

2011-02-13T15:16:00.000+08:00

Why do i still miss you so much? =(

2011-02-08T22:59:00.003+08:00

baby your all that i want,

when your lying here in my arms,
im finding it hard to believe,
were in heaven...

=(

2011-02-05T03:04:00.000+08:00

why does it hurts so much..........

好痛。。。。。

2011-02-05T01:00:00.002+08:00

A new lunar year = a new lunar start??

time to change my background.. =)

happy lunar new year ppl!

Was it something that i said? was it something that i did?

2011-01-29T17:43:00.002+08:00

Started my IA..

actually its kinda fun but maybe cos its just my first week there! =x

but made friends in the department already.. they are just like a small family.. haha

think this will be quite an enjoyable experience =)

Hope nth will go wrong.. be it for IA or decaf..

2011-01-16T22:35:00.002+08:00

hmm after coming back from taiwan for more than a week le.. but i still miss the place!! T_T

love the weather there now.. the food.. the people.. maybe can consider migrating there... hahaha.

results will be out soon less than 26 hrs can see the CGPA le x.x

ahhhhhhh hope it will turn out well!

i am so confused...........................

2010-12-26T03:10:00.002+08:00

hmm guess that will be my very last....

Somehow it gonna end..

un-answered question un-answered calls..

I've been through it all..

stepping out of your life once again..

2010-11-26T20:16:00.003+08:00

Was kinda bored and suddenly the thought of playing the recorder came up on my mind..

but........ i forget the fingerings!!!

hahaha but somehow i kinda get smth out of it =)

hope u all enjoy this short video! hahaha

till next time!

2010-11-18T02:48:00.003+08:00

can someone buy me a new guitar for christmas??

a les paul will do T_T

2010-10-26T00:52:00.001+08:00

new song coming up soon =)

even though i might nt be the one singing (my voice nt gd enough)

haha stay tune!

2010-10-15T02:30:00.002+08:00

Somehow thought that i saw her today..

but i dunno whether its her =(

sigh..

just dun understand why are u hiding..

or nt even answering my call or sms..

why the sudden fullstop again?

It really hurts..

don't knw if u are still following this blog..

somehow i still miss u after all these times...

2010-10-09T15:50:00.004+08:00

Our band is officially up le!!

The band name will be De Caf. =)

just had a bbq over at masa's place with our band members a 2 of our friends.

Had a great time but time passed so fast..

oh ya masa owns 2 huskies!! i am so in love with them!

haha they are my favourite breed but too bad i cant keep them at my place cos they prefer cold environment.. x.x

Thats Marrong! omg love her to bits.. haha :)

2010-09-15T04:44:00.005+08:00

Wa long time didnt blog le.. haha

this few weeks have been kinda hectic..

trying to adapt to school life after a 4 mths break..

and plus this sem is really stressful..

with all the crazy modules coming up, just hope that i cant clear them.

Dun have a elective this sem.. so guess more time for me to concentrate more?

its really fun to see how the band is growing.

from the time when there is only me and elson, then thomas came in.

then weiqian, marcus and rachel.

now we have a full core with elson, masa, yinxi and me.

just need either a vocal or a drummer..

but we are making gd progress already..

with news songs in our scores and upcoming original song!

will you run if i say that i fell you??

just so afraid of falling for you..

2010-08-11T17:55:00.003+08:00

AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

2010-05-09T17:34:00.003+08:00

exam finish liao!

this sem i tink i will do quite badly.. =/

we now having holidays till 30 aug

quite a long one so will be looking for jobs!

something that i had recorded today.. the volume is not very loud..

pardon my bad singing and pronunciation.

2010-04-04T16:14:00.001+08:00

sick = dying

sick + quiz = 1 foot in the grave

sick + quiz + formal report = funeral

2010-03-23T22:02:00.003+08:00

wa its been ages since i last updated..

well not much happened..

got new guitars, 1 x nephew, many new topics to learn, AQ completed.

cant really get into my study mood this sem.. hope i can survive :(

always wanted to tell her wat time feel..

but just dun have the guts..

am scared whether its too early? but at the same time scared that she might be taken be4 i make a proper move..

cant stop thinking of her when i see her photo..

till next time! cya all..

2009-12-20T11:07:00.004+08:00

thailand was super fun!!
love the place the country.. haha
missing thailand now.. but up next is malaysia!!

kinda busy this whole week..
thailand trip, prawning, chalet.
but i actually took out time to start learning guitar!!
gonna complete one song soon!!
Heart of worship!
one of my favourite christian song ^^

more to come up!

2009-12-13T04:22:00.001+08:00

going off to thailand 2mrw!
hope it will be a fun trip!
cya all soon!
take care!

2009-12-09T00:31:00.000+08:00

insignificance...
so ignore...

2009-12-06T03:16:00.002+08:00

exams finally over!
its time to relax..
these few days have been drinking..
=x way too much.. haha
well there will be a 5-weeks break be4 the new semester starts.. hurray to that!
will get back out results in 2-3 weeks time i tink.. Boo to that!!
i will be going thailand from 13dec till 17dec..
really need a holiday!
must relax till the fullest!

2009-11-05T12:17:00.004+08:00

the sick bug has come..

woke up today feeling like crap..

getting kinda worst.. =/

trying to squeeze all the redox reaction, organic chemistry etc into my head..

raining heavily.. love it very much.. love the cool weather..

good environment to emo =x

2009-11-01T04:12:00.002+08:00

omg its 0411 and i am still awake doing fluid mechanics.. -_-"
struggling with the turbulent flow thingy... zzz
anyway spend most of the time just now watching the man united match too =x

watched a movie today.. its called 'Paranormal activity'. i tink its one of the best ghost movie ever..
it can really scare the shit out of u.
i like it cos its realistic and create fear by simple means..
would actually give it 8.5-9 points over 10..
go catch it if u can :)

time to go back to fluid mech..
ciaoz!

2009-10-22T23:20:00.002+08:00

OMG!!! exams coming nearer and common tests are next week!!!
stress stress stress.. lots to catch up...
everything is in such a rush.
so much to do in so little time..
but i cant wait for exam to finish too..
need a break.. x.x
so much to catch up with friends.. old and the new..
but first need to focus more on studies..

hoping to learn how to play the guitar too..
wanna play songs!
and write some!

still need to catch up on my driving too..
very long didnt have lessons liao..
should be rusty le ba x.x

well gtg.. need to study liao.. nights!

2009-10-14T10:21:00.003+08:00

more than half a sem have gone by..
still quite lost..
wonder how will i fare this sem..
4 more weeks +++ few day to exam!!
time pass so fast here..
during the days in army time seem to pass so slowly.. of course everyone dread it =x
uni life has been quite gd though except for the stress..
get to know many new frens and get in touch with old ones..
but seriously we need more outings.. haha..

for the past 2 weeks i have been slping too much.. way too much..
havent been really studying.. tink i am really tired..
last night after PCK i slpt for almost 12hrs.. missing the morning class...

well gonna go to school now.. if nt i'll miss my afternoon class too -_-"
ciao..

2009-09-28T23:45:00.003+08:00

2 weeks without her being ard..
2 weeks of thoughts of her being with .....
2 weeks of loneliness..
2 weeks of constant thoughts..

sigh.. its killing me..
really dont want her to be there.. especially with ...
wan her to be with me only..
just the two of us..

everytime my niece comes into my room, she would point to the computer screen ask say 'jie jie'.
i'll reply, ' jie jie bu zai'. heart aches when i say that..
really miss her alot..
dont wan her to be with ...
sigh.. there is still so many days to go..
sigh...

2009-07-06T23:03:00.003+08:00

hey ppl..
didnt post for a long time as i was kinda lazy to update.. haha..
just came back from thailand on the 24th june..
had lots of fun there..

arrived in bkk on 15june.. then took a minibus to huahin..
3hrs bus ride.. we got lots of space in the minibus as there is only 4 of us.. :P
haha the max capcity for the mini-bus is abt 10 ppl..
when we reach the hotel we finally went out to find food..
was damn hungry then cos didnt really have a breakfast..

was damn new to the place so we didnt really know how to get food..
haha so we went to a restuarant and ordered some local food.. zi char style.. XD
finally got wat we wanted.. haha localised food and our branch..
after that we went to grab some ice cream.. it was quite nice but i ordered the wrong flavours..
haha its quite cheap too ^^

after that we went to the supermarket to stock up our drinks and rations.. hahah..
bought lots of milo.. one whole box of it.. =x
then 9 bottles of mineral water.. and some munchies..
went back to the hotel then take a rest.. haha..

afew hrs later i finally get to meet my ti rak :)
suai mak mak.. :P
after that had our dinner below hotel cos everyone shag out.. haha..
stayed at the hotel and watch tv.. haha..
later that night ti rak and i went out..
she showed me ard in her motorbike :)
like it alot.. travelled from one end to the other..
one of my best day ever..

2nd day we went to the shopping mall there..
its called 'market village'
walk ard there looking for things to buy..
but we hit the pharmacy first.. haha
then we walk from lvl to lvl.. recce the whole place.. haha
we had our lunch at a ramen place..
the ramen is nice ah... value for money.. haha..
after that we had our dessert at secret recipe..
cheesecakes!! hahah..
went back to the hotel by tuk tuk after that..
got a rest and wash up ..

caught the hotel van and we went to the hua hin night market..
its just like any other night market.. sell clothes and food..
but the food there caught my attention.. hahah..
lots of nice food..
tried to eat every single food i see... hahah
one that particularly caught my tastebud is the rotee..
haha
its just like prata except its thinner..
can add egg and banana in..
then it will be fried till crispy and they will add condensed milk in..
its very sweet but very nice!!

well i'll stop here for the time being.. too much to update.. haha bye..

2009-06-10T23:32:00.002+08:00

just when i thought i have healed..
the wound suddenly ruptured..
fresh blood spilled endlessly and it doesnt seem to heal at all..
the pain kept me awake through the nights..
thoughts of u ran through my head..
your smile, your voice, your everything..
life's not gonna be the same again..

bleeding in love..

2009-06-10T20:19:00.001+08:00

why do i keep bleeding??
when will it stop??

2009-06-07T07:28:00.002+08:00

ORD LOH!
finally got back my pick IC after surrendering it for 2 years..
haha lots of shit happened in these 2 years but well we had some fun.. haha
all the deployments the trainings and the very famous msk thingy..
well it all had come to an end and i am glad it had.. haha

next step is NTU..
lets just hope it'll be fun like the gd old poly days..
but one thing is the travelling.. haha so far away x.x
dun wanna take train too.. haha dun like the mrt..

8 more day!
8 more days and i can meet her.. :)
cant wait to meet up with my ti rak ^^

2009-06-04T04:19:00.001+08:00

3 more day! to ORD!
11 more days to see my ti rak :)

2009-05-18T16:38:00.011+08:00

looks like i have quite a few things to update?

haha..

well ord parade was quite a hit..

didnt know that our drill quite zhai until i saw the videos..
here are some pics..

The next day is our ord function..

had lots of fun but the food is not really nice..

just average..

was damn lucky that day..

we were giving some lucky drawn coupon and are suppose to tear and put inside a bowl..

i didnt know until my friend asked me to put into the bowl.. so i put last min..

when they accounce for the lucky draw, i didnt think that i can win as my number is also quite small.. 004

but somehow my number was read.. haha

and i won a black psp slim! (anyone wanna buy?)

here are some pics of the function..

After the funtion, afew of us went clubbing at st.james..

my 2nd time clubbing.. haha

had lots of fun though i didnt drink much as i drank alot during the function =x

The few days after the function was our off..

haha finally some long rest..

then we back camp..

had a few cohesion and healthy lifestyle thingy..

quite a waste of time.. haha.

well 19 more days to go!

NTU!

2009-05-02T00:15:00.007+08:00

YES! finally got an offer from ntu for the course in environmental engineering..
this signal the end of my plan to go australia uni..
new start for me..

ord parade coming soon..
next tues.. but still have abt 1mth+ more till i really ord..
still got to go outfield to be enemy -_-
sian..

Went for dinner with barry and adeline at cini..

ate at the chicago steakhouse (if i didnt wrongly remember the name wrongly)..

had sirloin steak as it was on offer..

think it will taste nicer if it is abit less cooked..

After eating there we went to walk ard and look for stella's bday gift...

got her some chain thingy..

then we went over to taka and to kino..

after we had chatted over coffee at the coffeebean in paragon..

I like these 2 photos..

they look as if the sunlight is trying to sip through..

but in fact it is taken at night..

2009-04-22T23:29:00.003+08:00

do u miss eating satays??
heard that its quite expensive to eat it these days..
1 stick can cost up to 50 cents..
yesterday i just ate 28 sticks =x
for free.. provided by our beloved SFI -_-
by not bad la their satay.. haha..
28 stick = > $11.20

Was it something that I said?
was it something that I did?

why are we floating apart??
sigh..
i really wish to settle down..

2009-04-16T23:41:00.003+08:00

green pixel..
familiar place..
kitten..
day..
night..

we started to wear our new uniforms..
my uniform too big..
ordered wrong size -_-
starting to get used to it though..

we are back at a familiar place to do our duty..
brings back alot of memories..
its abt 1 year ago when we did our duty there..

shared the same bed with a kitten.. haha..
at night it crawled into my sleeping bag and slept with me..
dunno if it felt my saddness then came.. haha
but really like it when it came.. haha comforting..

everyday see the sun rises and the sunsets..
or the other way round..
haha.. its like watching life fly pass u as u are doing duty..
the busy work life of singaporeans..

56 more days!

2009-04-11T22:44:00.003+08:00

56 more days!
ORD is ard the corner..
but yet my future is still uncertain..
will i end up in australia or still staying in singapore??
just really hope i will be given the course i wanted in local uni..

Just finished ACCT
throw and being thrown..
surprisingly it was easier than ICCT..

just now went out for dinner at bugis..
feels so detached from the social world.
haha..
think i need more social life -_-

sigh..
i dun understand what you are thinking..
why must we end up like this?

2009-03-28T16:43:00.003+08:00

$200 in exchange for 5000 signature, lots of running, cleaning rifle, tired day, 1 hr of sleep.
is it worth it?
maybe =x

left 2 more important event to ORD
hope the coming one will pass easily..

got enrolled into nus civil engineering..
but that is nt the course i wanted to enter..
gonna appeal.. but chances are low..

argh! my hard disk is down.. lots of things in there..
hopefully all will be still intact.. x.x

2009-03-12T14:56:00.004+08:00

fed the birds
fed the cats
fed the dogs
fed the fishes
watz next?? haha

hmm so bored at home..
thats wat happeneds when we got off on weekdays..
hard to jio ppl out also..
they have to work or study..

hmm sometimes i feel that i am being played..
pls dun.. lol..

2009-03-07T10:43:00.003+08:00

zzzz the injuries are driving me crazy..
first wrist, then left ankle , then back..
cant stay injury free x.x

sometimes i just dun get wat you are thinking.. hmm..

Redcon 1

2009-03-01T07:57:00.002+08:00

guess wat..
we scored a redcon 1 in atec -_-
haha didnt know how we got it..
maybe too zhai until dunno.. hahaha..
at least all our effects are not put to waste..
with atec finished, we only have 4 more big events till ORD..
haha..

really miss her these few days..
sigh..
more than 2 years already and i am still like this...
will someone take it away from me...

ATEC.. OPS.. ACCT.. CS2.. OPS.. ORD!!

2009-02-22T11:34:00.004+08:00

been really busy these few weeks..
my weekends are like so little.. x.x
last last sat came was confine cos of atec training..
last sat was in live firing..
enjoy my valentine with more than a hundred guys -_-
and recieving presents like mosquito bite, tiredness, camo and lack of sleep..

atec training has been hetic..
with so many things to go through.. damn tired..
but its gonna end next week..
after that we will have 4 main evens left!

have u all ever think of getting some of ur memories erase??
there are some that i hope to erase but yet wanna keep them..

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2009-02-01T13:58:00.005+08:00

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CNY!

2009-01-26T01:46:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to all!

3days straight of steamboat -_- , getting sick of it..
haha tink gonna put on even more weight liao x.x

would you be my girl..

2009-01-24T01:53:00.002+08:00

today dinner was powderful.. lol
went to billy bombers..
ordered chix and ribs. i love the chicken.. the meat is cooked just right.. its juicy and tender..
then fianlly get to drink.. haha been a long time since i last drank..
ppl drink will get more happy but in the end its the other way round for me..
haha become more emo..
think alot abt last time..

dun feel like doing anything during this year's cny..
just wanna rest up.. and spend time with my love one (if i have one)..
didnt get any new yr clothing or anything..
just too lazy and dun wanna spend..

don't lie...

2009-01-13T16:57:00.002+08:00

hmm still wondering why am i in the infantry unit after so long.. haha..
really sick of its life..
dunno if i will be confine for the saturdays..
stupid decisions made by the higher up -_-
if really implimented he should stay with us too.. zzzz..

Really hope for someone to be there for me..

o's

2009-01-13T00:29:00.001+08:00

congratz to rachel chen!
gd work on ur O's..
jia you! :)

bus

2009-01-12T22:00:00.003+08:00

today something funny happened in the bus..
was actually quite stunned by it.. haha..

i was sitting beside a girl..
she on the window seat and dozing off..
at first she was ok..
suddenly halfway through the journey i heard a loud bang..
her head actually banged into the window as she fell asleep..

I was shocked to hear.. haha
and i turned over and she started laughing.. haha but i tried nt to laugh.. abit rude..
but very hard to tarhan.. hahah..
i should actually asked her if she's ok.. but instead wanna laugh.. evil right.. haha..
so to the girl who was sitting beside me; sorry that i didnt ask if u are ok =x.

been thinking whether singapore is the place for me..
just have the feeling that my future lies out there..
but to leave everything here behind is difficult..
hmm wat should i do??

anyone wanna donate a husky to me?? :P

australian uni

2009-01-11T21:18:00.003+08:00

Today went to orchard hotel for the IDP open house..
applied for 2 unis..
Uni of queensland and uni of western australia..
haha but most likely i will choose UQ cos of it reputation and climate there.. haha
but of course i need to wait for their reply..

should i keep a pet to keep me company??
hahahaha..
wanna get a husky, but wont be at home often and its also quite ex to get one..
maybe go spca to get one??
but the hdb regulations might nt allow me to @_@
how?? -_-

poison

2009-01-11T08:38:00.001+08:00

Words from some ppl are just like poison...

duno..

2009-01-10T17:12:00.005+08:00

opportunity is there to grab,
yet is it the right time to grab..
would it be another disappointment and get rejected,
for i couldnt foresee the future..

recently i had the feeling of wanting someone to be there for me..
but of cos there is none.. its so hard to go through these feeling as the emptiness fills.

Oh ya.. less than 5 months more to go! finally!!
but then its still a long way to go.. hope it can pass peacefully, so far not at all..

new year day

2009-01-01T21:02:00.002+08:00

today finally got to meet up with my poly mates..
we havent been meeting up for quite some time..
haha hope ther ewill be more to come..
emo day cos going back to camp haha..

2009

2009-01-01T03:14:00.004+08:00

Happy new year everyone..
New year comes new stuffs..
i decided to reopen this blog after a very very long break...
life has been filled with many ups and downs, but mainly more downs..
regardless of that, lets look forward for a new year..
cheers!

2007-04-28T16:51:00.000+08:00

Have u ever ruin someone's life?

hmm recently i did..

sigh didnt know that it would happen..

sorry..

Still wanting to go see the sunrise with you..

Am such an idiot right?

baka baka baka baka me..

well this might be the last post..

gonna close this blog down..

hmm maybe will be back next time.. (maybe)

2007-03-21T16:54:00.000+08:00

Quietly leaving for Muang Lao

2007-03-14T10:20:00.000+08:00

sigh..
i so wish u can come back to me..
its been more than a mth..
but i still love u alot..
we used to say abt the 10yr contract but in the end we didnt even completed 1yr..
sigh..
i love u alot..
please come back to me.....

sarcastic

2007-02-21T13:28:00.000+08:00

hmm..
days are getting worst..
sigh..

hmm thinking abt being sarcastic..
am i tat nerd?

nerd - 1. a stupid, irritating, ineffectual, or unattractive person.
2. an intelligent but single-minded person obsessed with a nonsocial hobby or
pursuit: a computer nerd.

hmm for the first defination.. i am nt that stupid nor irritating then someone though i am not attractive..
2nd defination, i am nt that intelligent too.. but i can be a computer nerd (i like to be online)..

if base on my looks?
the glasses makes me very nerd? reason --> i dun dare to wear contact lenses nor taking it out..
hair? i dun like to style my hair.. lazy to do it every morning when wake up..

does smoking and going clubs makes u hippy? i guess its a stupid way to think that.. you have the money i dun.. u have the space in ur lungs to squeeze in somemore tar i dun..
does always being with chicks makes u not nerd? that totally crap..

2007-02-16T22:27:00.000+08:00

Am i just a stranger?
Who am i to you?
just someone to clear ur conscience?
how ironic to so easily write abt others than me?

crap year..
lost 2 important ppl in 2 mths..
how better can it get?
will i lose another in the next mth?

2007-02-14T23:33:00.000+08:00

who am i to you?
sigh..
jus someone insignificant i guess?
sigh..

just when i need someone to talk to..
in the end i ended up being the one listening..
sigh..

Courage

2007-02-12T21:33:00.001+08:00

sigh..
i no longer have the courage anymore..
can only depend on myself..
frens are not always there too..
everyone got their things to do..
sigh..

2007-02-04T21:03:00.000+08:00

sigh..
feel so dejected and lonely in the chalet..
everyone is busy with their own things..
its like goin there alone..
sigh..
even friends who were coming didnt come..
the one i love also didnt come..
sigh...

2007-01-31T23:13:00.000+08:00

sigh..
i miss u alot..
i jus wish u could come back to me..
sigh.. but guess u wont..

now i dun really noe the real meaning of happiness..
wen i should be happy i am nt really happy..
very ku xiao bu de..
sigh..

wish i could jus die in my slp..
slp and nvr wake up..
sigh..

2007-01-27T17:33:00.000+08:00

Sigh..

i still love her alot..

did i make the rite choice to leave her?

sigh..

2007-01-27T10:08:00.000+08:00

sigh..
our 11+ mths jus end last nite..
didnt want it to end but den gt no choice..
sigh..
a new chap will unfold..
sigh..

2007-01-10T22:36:00.000+08:00

Got a freaking bad headache..
hate acid digestion..
sian.. jus abt 4 more weeks my ihp goin to end..
very soon gonna enter tekong liao..
give gov 2 yrs of my life..

sian..